Rambling...

[azdesertrose]

This is harder than I expected it to be. I'm not quite sure what I'm supposed to do now.

Cliff and I are having some conflicts because he feels like I'm giving Nicholas more attention than I'm giving him. Except I feel like I'm giving Nicholas parts of me that Cliff never seems to want. Before Nicholas was part of my life, Cliff would shrug me off if I gave him a hug and/or a kiss while he was busy. Now that Nicholas is here, Cliff seems to want more attention from me.

So I'm trying to figure out how to give them both the love they need without making either of them feel left out, hurt, or marginalized, and still have something for myself. Yesterday I had to take some "Nora time" because I felt physically and emotionally drained. I felt like I'd had all the human contact I could stand, and I'm not used to feeling that way.

I feel a little like there's not enough of me to go around.

I'd like to talk to my friend Andi about it because she's been in a poly relationship for years, but I called her and she's a bit busy right now, so I'll have to wait to talk with her about how to do this the right way.

We have been, all three of us, much better of late about communicating what we want and need from each other, so I think we can make this work if we can just keep the communication lines open.

Comments

[crystalra1ndr0p.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry. I think whenever you have a connection with someone new, you spend more time with them or feel closer because of the *click*. I'm not poly though and I only know one person IRL who is so I don't really have any advice to give.

[desertrosedark.livejournal.com]

Thanks. *hugs*

[desertrosedark.livejournal.com]

Thanks. *huggles*