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[azdesertrose]

I just spent three days in the hospital again; suicidal thoughts got the better of me. The psychiatrist there raised my dosage of Celexa up to 60 mg (from 40 mg) and that seems to be helping. I don't feel quite so depressed any more and I can control the suicidal thoughts.

I hate being in the hospital. It's just not home. I took my teddy bear with me, but it wasn't the same as hugging my teddy bear in my bed with my boyfriend snuggled up to me.

I think I'm going to call the teddy bear Butter because of his color; he's a pale blond about the color of butter.

My online friends missed me, which was nice to find out. I don't think many of my RL friends even knew I was in the hospital.

I can't wait for bedtime tonight when I can sleep in my bed with Butter and my honey. :D

Comments

[browncoatrebel.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

I'm glad you're okay now.

You can e-mail me if you ever need to talk. I'm browncoatrebel.al@gmail.com

[desertrosedark.livejournal.com]

Okay, I'll copy that to my gmail. If you get an email from azdesertrose at gmail, that's me.

[yehovahyireh.livejournal.com]

Awww! Butter~n~honey!!!!!

I'm so glad you're ok and out of the hospital. I know how you feel about sleeping in a strange bed/place. I hate that, too.

[desertrosedark.livejournal.com]

Thanks. *hugs*