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Oct. 8th, 2006 08:45 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
azdesertroseBleah.
I'm having another of my "I can't talk" times. I feel things crawling on me when there's nothing there, and I have a hard time telling my boyfriend that I'm seeing bugs on things again, and smelling bad smells that aren't there.
I think--I hope--it's just the stress of moving getting to me, and once things settle down, I'll go back to being semi-okay, but I keep wanting to cut myself (I haven't but I have the thoughts), and I think sometimes about suicide (again, not seriously planning, just thinking).
Times like this, I think it will all never end, that there's no way I'll ever be free of my demons.
I'm having another of my "I can't talk" times. I feel things crawling on me when there's nothing there, and I have a hard time telling my boyfriend that I'm seeing bugs on things again, and smelling bad smells that aren't there.
I think--I hope--it's just the stress of moving getting to me, and once things settle down, I'll go back to being semi-okay, but I keep wanting to cut myself (I haven't but I have the thoughts), and I think sometimes about suicide (again, not seriously planning, just thinking).
Times like this, I think it will all never end, that there's no way I'll ever be free of my demons.
