it does not mean

[azdesertrose]

being depressed does not mean
that i never laugh
or never smile
or never find things amusing

being depressed does not mean
that i cry
all the time
that i mope

but just because
i can smile or laugh
just because
you don't see me crying

just because i can smile
it does not mean
that my tears do not fall
that i am not screaming inside

just because i can smile
it does not mean
that there is not a part of me
that wants to sleep forever

just because i can laugh
it does not mean
that i am not thinking
of ways to end myself

but no one sees this
no one sees the emptiness
of my smiles
hears the hollowness of my laughter