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I'm very anxious today. I want to hurt myself again, but I don't want to go back into the hospital. I'm trying to distract myself by chatting with my friends Kevin and Mike but every time the chat goes quiet I have to restrain myself from pinching and scratching at my arms.

I took two extra Klonopin but it's not really helping.

I wish I could have a cigarette but I really want to quit.

I feel torn in so many directions.