a poem

[azdesertrose]

Well, after not being inspired to write a poem for nearly a year, I finally wrote one.

my futon

in the dark of night
he crept to what we called my futon
held me down
and took what he wanted
whether i wanted to give it or not

he took from me my body
my childhood
my innocence
sometimes i think he took my sanity
my balance
my ability to be a whole person

now twenty years later
i live inside a damaged body
a damaged mind
a broken spirit

and yet i dare to dream
that someday
somehow
somewhere
i might become whole again

that i might like a phoenix
rise from the ashes of self
he left behind on my futon
rise from the brokenness
whole and strong and real
for the first time in my life

rise from the bloody ashen girl
from the scared child
from the shattered innocence
whole and strong and real
for the first time in my life