anxiety 12 July 2005

[azdesertrose]

tremors in my body
lightning in my mind
shake me everywhere
as if from without

fear without source
terrors without cause
send me reeling
as if i'd been struck

why does this happen
what is the cause
of the times when
i cannot hold still

why do i shake
why do i want to scream
why do i want to run away from myself
why can i not calm myself

in these times i feel
as if my mind has been stolen
as if my body is no longer mine
as if something else controls me

which in rational moments
i know is not true
but i can't stand the feelings
i hate these times

i want to run away
i want to hide
i want to close my eyes
and not open them anymore

the pain covers me
the tremors take me
the panic captures my mind
i want it to stop