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azdesertrose) wrote2008-07-09 01:54 pm
azdesertrose) wrote2008-07-09 01:54 pm
Bleauch
Not bleach. Bleauch.
I feel horrible. I'm having diarrhea and I don't want to move. I just want to curl up with my teddy bear and stare into space.
I don't want to think any more. Thinking just makes me feel worse. I just want to blank out my mind and stop existing.
The nice new bottle of Klonopin that's still in the pharmacy bag looks pretty good right now.
I'm so afraid I won't get the disability and we'll be stuck struggling like this forever. I'm tired of struggling. I don't want to do it any more.
I feel horrible. I'm having diarrhea and I don't want to move. I just want to curl up with my teddy bear and stare into space.
I don't want to think any more. Thinking just makes me feel worse. I just want to blank out my mind and stop existing.
The nice new bottle of Klonopin that's still in the pharmacy bag looks pretty good right now.
I'm so afraid I won't get the disability and we'll be stuck struggling like this forever. I'm tired of struggling. I don't want to do it any more.