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I really just want to curl up and cry. I can't make myself cry right now though, so that's out. But I feel like crying. I WANT to cry. I'm not even sure why I want to cry, except that I want to cut and I know I can't do that.

I need some kind of emotional outlet, and crying seems to be the safest one. It's better than cutting or making another suicide attempt (which thoughts have been floating through my mind lately too). But I can't cry even though I want to, need to.

I wish I could just get it all out, but it won't come out.

Sorry for my incoherence.